I'm obsessed with having a perfect accent.

It's not just one language every language my only care for speaking is, "do i sound native?" I just don't really care about anything else. I know their may be other things with speaking like meeting new people, but to be honest in my mind it always comes down, "why even talk to them if they don't think i sound native?" That might sound pretty weird, but to me not having a native accent isn't just a downside it basically sucks any reason i have for speaking in the target language. For example in school they are making me learn German and i swear to god i am so humiliated in that class it's like I'm in the middle of a bad comedy show every time i talk i just think, "god i don't sound German" and to me i just think what's the point than? Why even speak at all? In the end to me it just feels like being I'm being humiliated by speaking with such a bad accent, but I always think, "I gotta keep going though." Because in the end nobody choose to learn but myself.

Edit: just to clarify, this standard I have only really applies to myself. I don't judge anyone with an accent in any language. It's just my standard for myself, not how I view every language learner. If anybody else feels good with the level there I totally respect that.